Birthday Blues & Looking Back On An Incredible Year

Hello everybody! I hope that you all had a fantastic Christmas- doesn't it always go so quickly? Now we are in the period between Xmas and New Years when people say that they have no concept of time and the days just kind of fly by. I never used to understand that but now I think I get it, although with my birthday being on the 30th I have always managed to have an idea of what day was what. All the days just merge into one and after the excitement of Xmas, things just seem a little dull. It's like people are coming to terms with the amount of money they have spent on presents and facing the dreaded reality of having to start a whole new year from the very beginning.

Now why am I feeling a little blue? It's hard to describe but I guess it's a mix of the after Xmas lows, the fact that it's nearly the time of the month (not gonna explain that one haha) and the fact that I have just never really liked my birthday. Let me explain before you start to think that I am a raving lunatic...

When I was younger I loved my birthday, after Christmas ended it was the final big celebration in my family before the new year, which is pretty cool (and meant that no one could forget about it). But as I've gotten older and my wish-list has gotten significantly shorter, the silver lining is only that I get cake and now I don't even get that!

My family don't really have much of a disposable income so for my birthday a couple of little bits is normally all we can afford if we want to pay the mortgage on the 1st January! And whilst I am always fine with that- I would rather we could continue living than get the latest gadgets- there is always a teeny tiny part of you that wants slightly more. We never go out for our birthdays either I might add, and the 'slightly more' would be going out with my family and having a good time rather than getting more things that I don't necessarily need. I guess I just always feel bad on my birthday because I feel guilty that people go out of their way to buy me cute little bits when I have literally done nothing but turn another year older!

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Moving swiftly on, it is also around this time where I think back on the things that have happened in the past year and appreciate the good, the bad, and the just plain ugly. This year has been a good one overall, I did my GCSEs (and didn't do as bad as I thought), I moved to college to do a course that I really love and I grew much closer to my family. However, as always, there have also been really bad moments and I think the main thing that I have learnt from this year is that mental health is so so so important and should never be underestimated. You never know who is fighting a battle with their mental health which is why you should always make an effort to reach out to people and just be nice! Its cool to be kind, and it is certainly not cool to be a horrible person.

So I guess I am going to leave this post right here. I wish you all a fantastic 2019 and I will definitely speak to you in the new year. I am so happy with this little blog and am already having an absolute blast thinking of post ideas and then just sitting down and letting the words flow out of my fingers onto my keyboard.

Happy New Year and Happy Birthday to me! (17! I get to start driving :D, cue the Sound of Music 'I am 16 Going on 17...')

Have a fantastic week and take care of yourselves my lovelies...

Lots of Love

Glitter In The Grey xx